Day 3 of the 15 Day Book Blogger Challenge - these days are passing by fast!
Today's question is: who are your blogging BFFs? Well, ain't this a bit awkward for me? Truth is, there isn't any blogger who I know really well. And that probably stems from the fact that I don't spend as much time interacting with other bloggers as I want to. Look, I'm not opposed to commenting; it's just that, I'm bit of a lazy bum. And especially when school comes around, I think about all that homework I have to do and my blogging duties and I'm like, UGH. So yeah, I'm not a big commenter. And that's pretty much the main way you get to meet people around here (or so I've read).
But now it's summer and I don't have to go to school anymore. I'm really trying to make good use of my free time. I'm doing a lot more blogging and I'm commenting a lot more. And I'm getting to know some of my favourite bloggers better and you know what? They're not as scary and intimidating as I thought they were. I mean, they still are but now that I have actually TALKED to them, it's like, cool you're an actual person.
Sometimes, I still get a bit self-concious and I re-edit my comments/tweets like ten thousand times but hey, at least I'm talking, right? And that's a huge accomplishment for someone who at the very core is shy and EXTREMELY nervous. I'm used to always having a solid group of friends and now, here I am in the blogosphere not knowing anyone. And that's actually terrifying for me. Because there's this one part of me who loves meeting people and is all 'YAY, LET'S GO TALK TO BLOGGERS!' but then the other half is like 'Slow down, honey. No one's going to like you.' There's always this tug-of-war between the two sides and I'm never sure what to do. Though I can say that up until now I ended up shutting my mouth more often than not. Just sometimes you can't help it, you know?
With this summer though, I've really tried pushing my boundaries. I'm really trying to open up to more people. Because I want to change my attitude but also because I am selfish and I want more friends. But in my defense, every single time a blogger is asked their favourite part about blogging the answer is near always the community. And I love that other bloggers are having a blast fraternizing with everyone but when I read it, it's a bit like, oh. Because I hadn't really talked to anyone. And only now am I realizing what I'm missing out on and it's a shame I didn't realize it until eleven months into blogging.
Well, that's my little sob story. I'm sorry for hanging all that out there because I'm never comfortable with talking about my feelings but I just needed to let it out. Sometimes, talking is the best way to resolve your problems...and remind yourself how ridiculous you sound. Anyway, now that I'm trying to be more social, are there any friend applications? The apply-to-be-Annie's-friend office is now open. Just kidding, it's never that easy.